...future?

well, the new owners of my cozy little rented cottage in Broad Ripple decided that they wanted to renovate so I am out. Enter a storage unit blitz and a friend's couch...the creativity slowly ebbing away without stimulation...money dwindling...frustrations mounting...evil in the world...sadness...the girls...and music...

a new post...FINALLY...

Ahhh...music...I need this...It's going to be a long month of boxes and uncertainty...wish I could find a job, then at least some of the fear of the future would be gone...HooDoo is helping, but the best part is the acoustic stuff...mmmmmmmm...acoustic guitar.........how I've missed you.

...I've been away from my blog too long!

Wow, again I have neglected my blog...I must confess, I generally feel better when I post things here...so I will attempt it again...

Let's see - music... I dug through my cds last week and I've been listening to the Clash, Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, Eric Johnson and Joe Satriani to name a few...

On the local front..I've been frequenting the Grill to see HooDoo. I have to get out and see some of my other musician friends as I'm afraid I've been neglecting them...

On the employment front...well, that is pretty bad...after losing my job at Keltner, I spent all of 2010 and half of 2011 unemployed...then Bob called and I went to work for him as a contract designer at SLD...Thanks BOB! The contract ended mid-Feb 2012 and I didn't qualify for unemployment...I had to stretch that very last paycheck for 6 long weeks...hoping I qualify for unemployment now. I've applied to dozens of openings, but only a couple of interviews...hoping it doesn't go as long this time...

On the personal front...a dream has flickered again and I have to do some heavy thinking. The relationship front remains the same...but I am not worried about that. The Bethel is struggling again, and I have no answers yet, but working on some ideas now...

…on Chicago, training & the Olympics…

Chicago… ahhh, a tiny get-away in the midst of the craziness of my life... although it was for an intense training seminar... my head is going to explode, but I think I may have learned something! While here, I spent some time relaxing in the room watching some of the Olympics... I really enjoyed watching Shaun White last evening... what a fun thing to watch... makes you wnoder what it feels like to fly, doesn't it?

…just stuff…

…yeah, it's been a while. Things are starting to settle in and fall into place, making a sort of normalcy that is tolerable at this time. I'm so lucky to have friends that love me… and they know I love them…I am still struggling with sleep, finances and stress… just to add insult to injury, I lost my job in January, just after I posted my 1 year anniversary… still listening to the music… it just doesn't feel right yet, but it's closer… meanwhile, trying to stay busy, job hunting, finishing up the estate business… looking forward to the end of that…

…what the ?

… I don't know whether to laugh or cry… everything seems to be collapsing around me…and I am totally unable to prevent it…maybe I should chuck it all and go back to the farm…

…and…

never, ever forget to tell your mother you love her…