Just some musings:

just a wierd dream, a visit from a ghost - making me think about some choices I am making and wondering how to handle them... Should I follow my heart or complete the promise I made to someone, even though it really means giving up my dream a second time? Wishing I could do both, even though in certain circles its frowned upon? And there isn't anyone out there who really understands. Its the ONE dream I always wanted, and have been denied for 20 years... and this is the absolute LAST chance to try to follow it, should I? I wish I could talk to someone about this dream and what it means, but who would get it? And I still want it, even after everything that has happened these past few years. I still love the group and what it stands for...

What happens to a person when they give up their dreams?