i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

Alligator Brothers : Lulu's : Wednesday, September26

Nice to see you Faith Marie! It was fun! Miss you!
Great job boys! The show was fun and very entertaining!

Candy Bomber : Lulu's : Thursday, September 27

ahhhh, sweet! Wade - marvelous, simply marvelous!

Flatbed Twitch : Bentley's : Friday, September 28

I hadn't seen you as the full band for quite sometime! I enjoyed the show! Glad you got Steve, Wade & Birdy up for a few! Nice show! It was good to be back in 3lbland...

Supreme Session : Job's Daughters International : 2007 - Merriville Indiana

Wow- what a great week. I am so glad I spent the week with the fabulous & fun girls from Indiana! And then Brittney's dream came true! Now we have to let the world experience what we already know - That the Fabulous Miss Britt is a wonderfully articulate and caring young lady! Once again, the ritual competition was fun to judge, I only wish I could go and judge every year! I enjoyed the fellowship & entertainment at the Degree breakfast, just wish it weren't so darn early! (Think they can have brunch next time? 10 am?) I hope to attend next year's event in Wisconsin!

For those who don't know, Job's Daughters is a youth group that I work with, and love! It helps young ladies grow into beautiful, compassionate and caring individuals. It gives me hope for the future.

Wow, I just realized that it has been 8 long months since I posted to my blog...

Life has just been that busy! Between driving to Kokomo everyday, the band schedule, Job's Daughter events and traveling to see my mum, visiting other bands has been pretty lean.

The Kokomo assignment will end August 31 and that should free me up for some rest, relaxation & fun with my many band friends!

And, of course, how fitting that today is my birthday…

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Happy New Year Everyone!

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New Year's Eve was a blast! Thanks guys, once again, for making my night special. Hope you all enjoyed the food! Glad to host the party! I had a great time! Want anymore champagne? Looking forward to the new year, whatever it may bring.

BANDS : in general : All the time!

What fun! Live music is NOT dead! Support your local music scene, and dance like no one is watching!

Everyone have a good thanksgiving with lots of turkey, family, and friends?

Hey Wade, we need to open the wine cellar again and light the fire in the fireplace! Soon... with more music and less boxes!

Perform with the Band : Lulu's : Tuesday, November 28

Nice to see Drew! The Stones tunes are missed!

Alligator Brothers : Lulu's : Wednesday, November 29

STEVE!!!!! Wow it was nice to hear you front the band once again! Gotta tell ya I miss that! Those harmonicas are fabulous! Wade - where did THAT come from? Tim - did you ever get to finish that beer? Sparky - I gotta tell ya, I love ya! Robere - we have to tip those teeny glasses faster! ;) Gigi - you are just the right mix of sassy, classy & star!

Candy Bomber : Lulu's : Thursday, November 30

ahhhh, that was great! Eric darlin' - marvelous, simply marvelous!

Here's an idea :

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
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Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.
~anonymous~

The Flying Toasters : Mickey's : Saturday, November 25

BILL! You guys rocked as usual! Sorry I have been neglecting you! And as always, I just show up and I am treated like family! You are just SOOOO nice to me. I love you all...

Thanks for the ear tug, you "know" how I love that!

Jason! What can I say? Fabulous, once again! ;) BTW - just how many guitars DO you have?

I'll be out again soon! Until then, rock on!

luv,
~chicka

Marty Casey & Lovehammers : Hammerjam 2006 - Metro - Chicago IL : Saturday, October 14

Can you say, "ROAD TRIP"?

What a BLAST! I had a fabulous time! Well worth the $$ I spent on the tix. Gotta say Marty and the boys were in excellent form, and due to the nature of the event, it was absolutely phenominal to hang with the band! Food, music, drink - makes the old saying Eat, Drink & Be Merry very true! Wish I could have stayed until the party was completely over, because it was a great time. I must have taken well over 300 photos as well, and MOST of them turned out! Gotta LOVE that! And they were filming for a dvd as well, so maybe I'll be famous! hehehe. I can't wait to do it again! Chicago anyone?

luv,
~chicka

9/11
5 years later, and I still don't know how to deal with everything that happened. Working at the airport was really scarey and even creepy! The skies were clear blue & silent for days, except for the flight of Air Force One over Indy! I broke the news to the building because I was running late and it was on the radio. We scrounged for a tv and watched the coverage continuously that day, unsure of what it would mean for us... I actually thought the world was coming to an end... even making deals with friends and acquaintances about what we would do in the event of that occuring! ...then losing my job a year later. And I am STILL looking! and what really matters to me the most? some of the friendships are so much more now... and we all remember our promises to each other from that fateful day... so I say to you, Let's all be good to each other...

WOW, What a wonderful thing I did for myself for my birthday!

The ticket was dirt cheap for the show I saw! $10 for FOUR, YES FOUR bands! And what a great show! And to top that off, I actually knew one of the bands! A shout out to Steepwater! Hi Boys!

Well, I think I've finally found someone who can rock as hard as Henry does! Lovehammers was absolutely rockin'! Marty was fun, friendly and quite the showman. And I met the band after the show! They were all very friendly and personable. and the tunes, WOW! I am officially a hammergirl, front row baby! And the camera got a real workout! I have a few pics posted on myspace (LavenderUnicorn), and hope to have a gallery at my site soon!

I think I may have to do a roadtrip - Chicago anyone?

Ahhh! That's better, more than one band a night!

Possum : Moon Dog Tavern : Friday, July 14

Boy did I enjoy listening to you guys! I miss you! I will be back out! Thanks for telling me Sparky! (was that Clark?)

Double Coyote : Kelly's : Friday, July 14

Frank, Tim - gotta tell ya, I had fun! It was nice to see Larz and Bryan & Rochelle

Alligator Brothers : Ben Davis 1985 Reunion : Saturday, July 15

That was fun! Glad I could get you some refreshment! ;)

------ I do hope to start getting back out to see more bands soon, now that my official state officer year is complete. Just have a few details to finish up on, then my free time will be just that, FREE!!! ;)

…ahhh, just a few more weeks of this crazy schedule of my Youth Group duties, and then, I will be back to band following in earnest! I am so sorry to my favs whom I haven't seen in a while! I haven't forgotten you and I do MISS you all. I just have certain duties to fulfill on a promise I made...

a heartfelt apology....

ahhh, I am such a dope! Wade darlin' Happy Birthday and I'm sorry for the little bit of "drama" I created most recently! ;)

I seek comfort, solace, in words, music & you...

Perform with the Band : Lulu's : Tuesday, February 21

Live band karaoke- OK so I fronted the band! OMyGod! I was nervous, had a major dose of Grand Mariner and was slightly off key, but it was fun, and after getting through the nerves, I might do that again! As long as the boys will have me! What fun!!!!! :)

Alligator Brothers : Lulu's : Wednesday, February 22

EVERYONE WAS ON FIRE!!!! Thanks for the encouragement! I might just have to sing again! (if you all don't care!) I do have to say - what a rush! Z & Bill: I think I am almost ready... hmmmm...

more musings- a bit of poetry for you:

untitled. 01.28.2006

-and sometimes the music
touches you so very deeply,
it swirls around inside you
until it reaches
your very soul, and shatters
into a million shards
filling you to your most
inner core...

LU.01.28.06 cyt


Music & Wine. 11.19.2005

music & wine
words, secrets, hopes, dreams
a warm hug,
a quick kiss
whispered words
a soft carress
comfortable silence
yet electricity in the air —
tilted glasses
nectar of the vine,
deep conversations
feelings, heavy & astute-
bluring the edges
thoughts tumbling in my
cloudy brain

LU.11.19.05 cyt

Alligator Brothers : Johanning : Saturday, January 28

What fun! Hey Rob: B-EE-RR-U-N beer run! can't believe I was the last one out, Thanks for listening boys! Wade: do you need a bodyguard? Glad you came over to my side of the bar? And we did finally open my wine cellar! But I think we got ahead of ourselves, and forgot to light the fire! On another evening then... with more music and less boxes?

Perform with the Band : Lulu's : Tuesday, January 31

hmmm, can we say, live band kareoke? It was fun, and maybe I'll get up with the band soon!

Alligator Brothers : Lulu's : Wednesday, February 1

OOhhh, nice! Hey Wade, Purple Rain almost reduced me to tears!

Candy Bomber : Lulu's : Thursday, February 2

Ahhh, Larz, just like old times! ;)

Jennie Devoe : Rathskellar : Friday, February 3

TOTALLY AWESOME! I missed you! I took over 200 photos! I have some posted on my website! I will gladly share! Can't wait for the (what was that I saw?) DVD? cool! Jon, my man, fantastic to see you, and thanks for the compliment!

Endless Summer : Mickey's : Friday, February 3

Ahh, it was just like the old days, more than one band to see! Glad I made it up to Mickey's for at least part of the show! Faith- thanks for the intros & the compliments! Everyone was so friendly! Nick & Lesa: thanks for the chat and the lift around front! I'll try to plan my evening a bit better next time for optimum listening pleasure of BOTH bands! ;)

The Flying Toasters : Avalon : Saturday, February 4

Jason honey! Thanks for the dedicated tune! Sonja- YOU ROCK! Chris, Rodney & Orvis: what fun! Oh Magical Bill- what happened to you? I couldn't find you after the show! Keep on hittin those skins! What a fun time! I'll be out to see you again soon!

musings....

giving up my dream a second time, the ONE dream I always wanted, even after everything that has happened these past few years. I still love the group and what it stands for... except that sometimes, I just can't STAND the politics of the ones who don't get it... and does the dream last? who have I become? will I be able to continue to move on? I am broken... it is a love/hate relationship...

I seek comfort, solace, in words & music...

Alligator Brothers/Henry Lee Summer : Adam's Mark : Saturday, December 31

New Year's Eve: WOW! an GREAT show. Henry was in a good mood! Gigi- you looked smashing as always! Mark, Tim & Wade - thanks for the midnight toast! Nick & Eric - too cool! Rob: wonderful! and you rocked!

I hope the food was ok. I didn't want you to go hungry! I really enjoyed the down time with you all, football, jokes, food and good fun!

even the drama

I hope I can host the Green Room party again next year, I do hope you enjoyed!